Get Behind Me, Discouragement!
Well, I realized a few minutes ago that the last post, which I thought I had saved as a “draft” was actually originally published (unfinished!) back on the 4th. I, of course, did not realize this until after I logged on to make some changes and republished it. So, I guess I ought to write another post.
One that is a little less easy. A little more personal.
Yesterday was one of those days. Those days that we don’t speak of. A day that nothing really went wrong, but I felt cruddy anyway. Couldn’t blame it on hormones. Just every day life.
Communication issues. Kids gone haywire. Old dog “issues”… Like how in the world does the turd actually STICK to his butt? OMgoodness!!! I nearly barfed cleaning it off. A saddle that I thought was sold- well, it turned out the centerfire girthing didn’t work for her horse. Dang- I was going to spend all that money on feed and wormer to last me the next 6 months! A phone line that doesn’t work and WOW, the phone company will come right out to fix it… sometime between 8am and 7pm. By the way, make sure someone is home. WHAT?!
Nothing major- just every day life.
Sometimes don’t you just want to cry or crawl back in bed? Usually the thing that helps me recenter is spending some time with my horse… even if I’m just doing chores. Praying, crying if I need to. Just standing quietly and burrying my face in his neck. But since I couldn’t leave the house waiting for AT&T, no horse time. Finding a quiet spot in my house to pray and “shake it off” in next to impossible so I had to make due with what I had.
Sigh.
I know it won’t last. This morning I’m up and at ‘em at 5:00, had coffee & showered… breakfast made and dinner in the crock pot… Pumpkin candles burning, laundry in the dryer, all beds are made… Started homeschooling and it’s not even 9:00. The house is fairly quiet (for my house anyway) and today is a new day. Sometimes when I feel discouraged I just have to rest in that. That today is a new day.
Maybe it will be harder than the last, maybe easier. Maybe even the same. But it is new… And if it sucks, it will be over soon enough, lol.